It seems just like yesterday that I held my daughter, Shena, in my arms. Tomorrow, her oldest child, Aimee, will graduate from high school. Where do the years go? They've flown by with all the twists and turns of every day living. All the ups and downs of our lives.
What have we done with those twists, turns, ups and downs? Hopefully we've used to them to help ourselves grow, searching for the meaning of our lives. The mystery of what makes us tick. The purpose we were brought here on earth. To find our soul. To grow and learn, and perhaps help others grow and learn.
For many years I worried and fretted. Why was I brought here? It had to be for some reason, for some purpose. I knew it deep inside of me, I just couldn't figure out what it was. Was I put here just to be a mother? If so, then why did I feel like a part of me was missing? What did I need to do to figure that out?
I started following the things that interested me. Things that had held my interest for years. As I searched out one thing, another link would just pop up out of nowhere, until I started accumulating all of these books, and meeting others who were just as curious and interested as I was. Coincidence, you might think.
No, there isn't any such thing as coincidence. All things happen for a reason, I believe. And I can sit back and look at all of these little "happenings" and say, "ah hah, that's why that happened." or "Wow, look at that."
I'm not done searching yet. I still want to know the truth, the reason, the purpose for my life. I look back and realize I'm a little closer than I was a few years ago. I know I'm a little closer than I was yesterday
Who am I? I can probably tell you what I am alot easier than I can tell you who I am. But one thing I've come to realize. I AM me. For whatever that is worth, I AM ME.
As for my daughter and granddaughter, I'm sure they are searching too. Maybe once my daughter's children are grown and living on their own, she will find herself staring out the window wondering who she is, what her purpose in life is all about.
Perhaps, she's already wondering. Maybe Aimee is wondering too. They'll find their path,just as one day I hope I truly recognize mine, and I know they will live it to the fullest of their ability.
Congratulations, my first born's eldest. You make me proud.
Namaste,
Sue
